Monday, December 22, 2008

I can't find my car.

Well, I know where my car is, I just can't see it under all the snow. Yes, there really is that much snow on the ground. In my driveway in fact. Packed around my poor little Ming. (Ming is my car's name, for those of you who are not yet convinced that I'm insane.) It's literally -20 degrees outside right now, with the sun shining. And we're supposed to get 6 more inches of snow tonight, then another 7 inches on Wednesday. Yikes.

I found a veritable treasure trove of material for inspiration. Generally, to write good stuff, I have to be emotional about it. My emotions imbue the writing with emotions and voila, yummy stories of emotional goodness. So, I found two things. Isaac's myspace and several conversations with Isaac from November 2006. If you remember my history correctly, you'll realize that November 2006 was 11 months after we parted ways and period when communications were reopened. I like to think I got over his betrayal and became a stronger person, but there are moments when I'm full of such a cocktail of negative emotions, rage in the forefront. Even after all this time. From those emotions, I've started a new series of short stories. We'll see how far they go.

Volleyball was not so good on Friday. We lost all three games, though I did manage to kick the ball back over the net once. I was rather proud of that one. Playing itself was fun enough, but I like to have my hard work rewarded by winning everyone once in a while. We came close, but didn't pull it out in the end. Thus ends our holiday league at Waynz World. There is talk of a winter league on Tuesdays, so hopefully I'll have my revenge on the ball.

Christmas presents are almost ready. That's all I'm saying about that. But, Happy Yule! for all you pagans out there.

I have to go run some errands and take a nap because I'm developing a bad tendency to read all night again. Maybe if I read all day, the urge will subside at sleepy time...

second chances they don't ever matter, people never change
once a whore, you're nothing more, i'm sorry that'll never change
and about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
i'm sorry honey, but i passed it up, now look this way...

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Almost done.

I really shouldn't be here right now, but I love procrastinating. The only thing I have left to do for the semester is my Buffy paper. I'm about a third done with it, so I need to get on it. I just finished and turned in my final linguistics homework and everything else has been done since last week. So let's go back, shall we?

We had a double-header on Friday night for volleyball. Like the week before, we actually played as a team and had a lot of fun. We lost the first match (all three games), but we won the second (again, all three games). It was a nice feeling to sweep another team. My serves are improving slowly, but I apparently need to work on my sets because I keep getting called for carrying. Either way, this is the last week for our volleyball league. We signed up for the next one starting the first week of January, but the games are on Tuesdays instead of Fridays. This is good because then we can go to open volleyball on Fridays, but it's bad because only four of us can make the Tuesday night games. And of course, I'm signed up for volleyball II in the spring at UWM. I'll learn to jump serve yet.

I lost 2.2 pounds at Weight Watchers this week, finally putting me under 130 again. I visited the cardio machines at the gym before volleyball both days last week, and it helped. To keep that going, I joined the YMCA by my house for a month so that I could keep up with the cardio. I can thank Kelly for turning me on to that when I was in Dallas. They have open volleyball hours at the Y too, but I when I went over there yesterday, the guys playing were mean to me. I might as well have been sitting on the sidelines cheering. Actually, I might have gotten more of a workout if I had been cheering. I'm gonna go on Wednesday and see if the same guys are there. I really only joined for the cardio machines (and maybe the hot tub, sauna, and occasional use of the racquetball courts)...mostly for the cardio machines.

I have a new writing goal. I want to submit at least one story a week until school starts again. It's all well and good that I'm writing regularly, but I'll never get published if I don't submit. With that in mind, I submitted the new version of "Hunter" to Asimov's Science Fiction this week. What can I say, I aim high. I also tried to submit "Set in Stone" to a smaller press called Fringe, but there was some snafu with the e-submission thingy. I'll try again next week. I'm still waiting to hear back from Glimmer Train about the Family Matters contest I entered in October. Speaking of contests, I volunteered to help with the Fab Five contest at WisRWA in February. This is an amazing opportunity because I get to be in constant contact with editors as we organize and they judge the contest. I plan to enter it as well, but not in the category I'm organizing. It'll be tricky though because I'm also going to the annual AWP conference in Chicago in February. I'll be working the Cream City Review booth at the book fair and shmoozing with lit mag editors. Hopefully one will be sufficiently impressed with my funky outlook on life and personally ask to read some of my work. Well, one can dream. One last writing bit of news, I'm organizing a student/faculty reading on March 20th. More news on that as it gets closer.

All but two of the Christmas presents are taken care of, and those should be done and shipped by Friday. I'm not telling what any of them are, but I'm very pleased with how they all turned out. Eli and I went through the Christmas stuff last night and put up the tree. He actually helped this year. Have I mentioned I love this man? We have an entire box of present-wrapping stuff that is completely covered in mold. Suffice to say we won't be using that stuff this year. We also found that we have one and a half Christmas trees. An interesting situation to say the least. The half a tree is getting thrown out with the moldy wrapping.

Work is going to be busy up until Christmas as the computers came in for all my students and I have to arrange times to go pick them up with the families. Patricia also set up some kind of curriculum involving the computers for the last week or so of tutoring with them. I have no idea what it entails. All I know is that I have to find extra time to do this. She also gave me another list of students to pre-test, and I have to get permission forms signed for four of my new students to start in January. I just keep telling myself that I love my job most of the time.

Vegas is still on for New Year's. I can't wait.

here and now, will we ever be again
cuz i have found
that all that shimmers in this world is sure to fade away again....

Saturday, December 13, 2008


I tried to post last night, but I was interrupted by our volleyball games (which we won, more on that later). Today, I've convinced Eli to go Christmas shopping with me. Fun times. I'll let you know how it goes.

i'm dreaming of a white christmas...

Friday, December 5, 2008

Bet you thought I'd disappeared again.

Here I am, and it's only been four days since my last post. See, I'm blogging regularly. What else have I been doing regularly? Well let me tell you. I've been writing. Oh yes. It started out as a revision of Hunter, but it's not even really the same story anymore. There are some similar plot structures and the names/places haven't changed, but a whole lot is different. Starting with the fact that I've literally rewritten most of it. Hopefully for the better. So yes, I've gotten my page a day finished this week...and some.

I stayed exactly the same at Weight Watchers this week, which is a cause for celebration. We went to my first Wisconsin fish fry last Friday, and it was so good that I ate a lot of food. I wanted to go back this week, but Eli vetoed the idea since we had an early volleyball game.

We actually won this week. Our official record is something like 17 losses to 2 wins, but we're really proud. I think we're going to join the Winter league starting in January. Tonight was awesome, we finally played like a team, though my serves were still sucky. I really need to find time to practice just serving.

I'm actually keeping up with my huge homework load for this week so far. I still have quite a bit to do, but it was expected. Sunday is going to be so busy. Especially since we're going to the Comedy Pub tomorrow night, and I have a Quilt Club meeting and the WisRWA holiday party. I just don't see much homework getting done tomorrow. Maybe I should just concentrate on grading tests for that day. On the plus side, I plan to get a Hawaiian Blizzard. I probably won't eat all of it, but I'm going to buy it and take many tiny bites.

love should end with hope...

Monday, December 1, 2008

I am not procrastinating.

Okay, so maybe I am procrastinating...just a little. Right, time for updates. I very much enjoyed the feasting for Thanksgiving. Eli's family gets a little less scary every time I hang out with them. His step-mom didn't even ask me to help do the dishes this year (which prevented a sarcastic response which probably wouldn't have gone over well). I couldn't help thinking of Kelly and the Bissons a little wistfully. They always have such great Thanksgivings, kind of like the idealized American feast, but with less fat and calories and more Trivial Pursuit. I hope Kelly had fun. My weigh-in went really well. I lost weight again, so I haven't screwed myself too bad yet. I managed to not go crazy the rest of the weekend, so I'm hopeful.

Amy called throughout the weekend to pester me about doing my paper... and to discuss the rest of the Twilight Saga as she reads it (she's only partly into the second book the last time I talked to her). Did I actually work on my paper? Yes. Do I have anything to show for it? No. I wrote a couple of pages, then deleted them because they were crap. This isn't humility talking, I know crap from good writing. I haven't read any of my research yet, and it showed. I finally admitted that I really need to just sit down and read all the stuff I collected for the paper. I did all the rest of my homework for the week though. I'm almost done with my work stuff, so ideally, I'll have a full week to work on reading and writing my paper. I still have to revise and write the stories for my fiction portfolio, but it's not due until the week after my film paper, so it loses urgency points.

Also, I just watched the Sex and the City movie, and it was good. Made me want to look up Beethoven's love letters.

In other news, it's currently snowing like crazy, so there's a good chance my car won't want to start tomorrow after being buried in 8 inches of snow. Now, 8 inches doesn't sound like a lot until you have to shovel it or drive through it. Luckily, there will be no more shoveling as I bought a snowblower for Eli. We're all set. Speaking of Eli, he's in bed waiting for me, so I'm heading out.

Happy December, everyone!

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours